Eating lots of food makes me happy.
Eating lots of food makes me unhappy.
I am very happy WHILE I am eating it. I enjoy it very much. So much that I eat way too much. However, after stopping, I am quite unhappy. Ashamed I ate so much, I feel fat and physically feel uncomfortable.
So doing one thing makes me happy and unhappy.
The problem here is that the happy comes BEFORE the unhappy. All the happy I get makes me not think about the unhappy that is coming. Every time I get to the unhappy, I tell myself I have to remember this before next time. I just never do. Or, I choose to not think about it. I have issues!
Over Thanksgiving, I knew I would be eating food I don’t normally eat. I told myself to just be reasonable. Eat a plate, enjoy it and be satisfied. But no, I have to go back for more and more until I get to the unhappy.
I have a switch. When I turn that switch off and allow myself to eat bad foods, I have trouble turning the switch back on. When the switch is off, I want as much as I can get while it is off!
My prayer during this holiday season is that God will remind me of the unhappy BEFORE the happy and that I will not ignore it.